Thursday, August 21, 2008

hey. back early from camp this week.

funny how. michael buble's home was stuck in my mind all week. and now that i m out of camp. i dont feel all the happy. pressures all over the place. from the people that matter most to me. i pray that over time, God ll help me resolve these issues that seem to be tugging and pulling me down. issues seem to be trying to convince me that staying in camp might be the best thing afterall, even thou i know that isnt true.

i guess the routine cycle of being an armskote man is gonna set in soon. and i ll probably lose the excitement i had from the first 5 days of work. and some people in work add pressure as well. the HQ bunkmates arent the most ideal to live with. thank God i spend only the days in HQ bunk and the nights with platoon 8, section 1. haha. now i feel so attached to platoon 8 section 1. i dont wanna move over to HQ. but thats life la. eventually when i have to shift. i ll have to deal with a different kinda hardship. somethings gonna give.

but armskoteman. i feel its more beneficial to me la. alot of things require efficiency and immediate response. i guess i m capable of good work. but lack the speed and responsibility to carry them out till the end. guess this job will teach me a thing or two that i didnt learn in council.

anyway. been thinking alot quite afew days la. i think its time to move up a notch. as a person, my character, emotional, physical, spiritual aspect. start to think about the future in a less childish and stubborn way. time to grow up nicholas tan.

|cowpoo| 11:46 PM|

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